distractions...

tried to take the advice of a friend and ignore it/grow to hate it. couldn't help myself if my life depended on it and so failed. heard something that shouldn't affect me but it did, and on second thought, most people would see it as a big deal. it is a big deal when you're involved, a shock, a slap across the face. tried to turn it into hate so i could concentrate. at the end i feel inferior.
why do i feel this way?